A stressful thursday noon

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woof~~ Integrated seminar is over, so over that i think i flunk that seminar.

Whats with the entire stage fright thingy, still cant get over it after so many years. i can't even raise up my head to look at those people sitting there, the minute i looked up, the minute my heart race as if its gonna burst out of my chest and my hands start shaking so badly. DAMN!! its a freaking presentation and i can't even look at the audience!! way to go big girl. 

I m mentally tortured and tired, me no wanna read up for lecturer evaluation!! all i wanna do now is have a bubbles bath and REST! 

A happy wednesday

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A very happy day :P I met mcdreamy today, God does know how to spice up my live. i couldn't stop myself from grinning right at the moment i saw him.. Too happy!!

He is far beyond reach, superb eye-candy :) yet, a girl can dream can't she? 

SHIT!!! 2moro is the integrated seminar and i have yet to finish my preparation..WTH!! the whole short-attention-span thing is real contagious!! STAY FOCUS :p

signing off,

love lots

A depressing monday noon

❤ Tell me again why WE ALL hate Mondays?

It doesn't seem like a good day today, probably due to the upcoming hectic week. Seems like a lot of people had a bad morning, so did i. What do we all call these again? Oh, monday blues. Sometimes it just gets too hard, I've been fighting for all these past 4 years. a little too much to handle for me yer? 

Okay, enough of all these screwed up emo shit. Its monday today, did i mentioned i have a hectic week ahead? ohya, twice! i wish there was magical woods nearby where i can just hide in the woods and do nothing at all. I just wanna lay under the big shady trees with soft grasses underneath me, surrounded by beautiful flowers and think absolutely nothing at all. Not to forget those absolutely mind refreshing fresh air. Oh dreams, please come true one day. 

*SNAP* back to reality, 2moro is one big ass day you need to work on your integrated seminar slides, when is the presentation again? ohya, in 2 days time! what have you done so far? ohya, nothing! way to go my big girl, just keep it up and suck it all in!! 

Your voice echoes in my mind

❤ If only they are present tense

Rain is pouring again, droplets on the window railed their ways down just like the tears rolled down my cheeks. 

For no reason, i m crying again. 

Whenever i realized tears welled up my eyes for no good reason, its always pouring outside...

Then i realized i m actually missing you again.

How i wish i m in that pair of strong arms with the familiar scent i love so much, they will definitely drained these moody tears away.

Ze tunes of Valentine

❤ February the 14th 

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY

p/s: I love you, still do, will always do ❤

2nd month of the year

❤ Love is so not in the air

Oh i love February so much, NOT!! Hah, actually Feb hasn't been a bitch to me yet, but i can see it coming :P

Bad news 1: Moi baby is going back to aussie in such short notice :(, not fair you noe? My bad, it seems like it will never be enough for as long as she can stay here in malaysia.. Go babe, fight for your future and i ll always love you.

Bad news 2: The awesomenest-(Y)-chromosomes in my life is doing his whatever project in sabah for the mean time and wouldn't be back here until 1 month after!! no fun!! worse of all, he doesn't seems to be able to on9 often :( who is going to listen to my grumblings and complains?  

Dear God, Y U NO pour me money from the sky?? i can smell financial crisis already...This is the February with 29 days, what does it means?? IT MEANS YOUR DADDY HAS A BIRTHDAY COMING UP THIS YEAR!!! yes, 4 years once birthday makes me feel so bad if i didn't get something good for him. READY TO BROKE? not yet, your baby brother's birthday is lining up on March and what are you planing to get him for his 21st birthday? ohya, an IPAD 3 when its release!! Now all these cost a bomb in my pocket!! 

Aha, life's not so bad yet, Daddy's birthday can be shared between mummy and boy. Ipad 3 wont be releasing anytime soon :P 

sorry blog readers, as LLM isn't here for me to complain, so i m complaining here :( gotta go now, PCP and long written case waiting..ohhhhh, its the last rotation for my sem 8 attachments *congratulations and celebrations* muahahahaha

 

Just this moment

❤ February, like a breeze

Its February already? i could hardly accept the fact that its 2012 tho i have to say i m really really glad for the ending of 2011, but here it is, second month of the year. 

i know its kinda contradicting to say so, but can i paused the time? yea, i cant wait to graduate, but graduate means growing up more like walking into another phase of my life, i don't wanna grow up just yet, not ready for the new chapter in life.. if time was a person, i'll have to tie it down, locked it up with the toughest and hardest lock on earth, guarded with the strongest and biggest bodyguards ever.

January has treated me pretty well but it was kinda like the "chinese new year weather" as i called it, sunny and bright with sudden rains and thunder. The violent mood swing is what i shall blame. 

To this i've realized i have changed over these few years time, or perhaps just 2011. i started enjoy being alone, taking public transport alone, spending ample time slacking alone. i would rather be laying down on my comfy bed and studying stories book or wattpad stories alone than going out with friends. Since when i seriously have no idea of, i started worrying bout going out for gathering with my friends, i m worried that i might not fit in, i m worried that i might be left out. i started acting like a brat telling my bff that i dont wanna turn up at the gathering because i've known no one for close. That is just so not me. i used to be able to talk to anyone just like i've known them since forever. 

Where did this girl went missing? i need to hunt her back seriously, things are getting a little bit out of hand now :(